Today was an interesting day.  I didn't want to run down the battery on my phone, so I didn't listen to music.  It's funny how even when you're not listening to music, you still have music playing in your head.  I had the usual songs that I would have listened to, along with "Take it Easy", which I haven't heard in ages.  Funny.  I know this blog is supposed to be about running, but running is also about the mental things that go on, so I thought I'd share a few random things that I thought about while I ran...

I also had many strange thoughts floating through my head.  I thought about how my dear uncle had just passed away and how much I regretted not spending more time with him.  I know that he was a precious  man and will be missed so much.  I know I'm an age where I will start losing people and it's scary.  I also thought about my own dad.   He looked a lot like my uncle, except he used to say he was the one with the hair, because he had that comb-over thing going on with a few hairs across the top of his bald head.  He was joker.  They weren't that much alike, except when it came to their faith.  My dad might not have been a preacher, but he had a quiet faith that assured you of what he believed.  I also thought about how he was taken from me too soon.  I could have had 30 more years with him...what a joy that would have been.  It makes me sad and also makes me think how unfair that I lost both my parents before I should have...its not fair.  I really could have used their wisdom in so many moments in my life. 

Anyway, those are some of my random thoughts.   I did a lot of walking today, for some reason I felt self conscious about running.  Some people look good when they run...I'm pretty sure I don't.  I know it's not about how you look, but when you're running along a busy street you feel like you're exposed to the world.  So I did a lot of walking.  I really would prefer running somewhere where people couldn't see me.  But there aren't many places like that in Riverside.  So I'll keep doing what I do...I just need to lose that self consciousness.  Next week will be better, until then my treadmill will save me from the hot, humid Riverside weather.  It has been a very humid summer.